I’ve always wanted to write a book. Ever since I was small, I was taking my surroundings and twisting them with my imagination into an interesting storyline. In school, when asked to write a short story, I inevitably found myself coming up with ideas that could not be contained into a short ten page piece, but was worthy of becoming a book.
But when it actually came down to choosing a topic to write, I found myself at a loss. What story could I cover that hadn’t already be told by another? Could it be up to par with those written by the authors that I so greatly admired? And, once I did settle on a topic, would I be able to keep my audience in suspense until the very end?
These are the questions that still plague me. I have finally settled on a topic for a book to write, but I have found myself unable to really step forward and write it. I have done all of the background work. The plot is planned, the races of the land has been decided upon, the map is drawn… but now I find myself facing a new conundrum. How do I make my characters real? I know what they should do, where they should go, but what are their vices? No person is perfect, and so they need some imperfections.
The biggest problem I face, though, is conversation. I have managed to write up to the first major conversation and I don’t know how to begin. What will they say? I need to reveal what kind of people they are, but whenever I start to write the conversation sounds… forced.
I feel like these problems are not insurmountable and, upon reflection, I think it can be said that I am actually afraid to start writing. Even though this is something I have always wanted to do, I am not sure if I am ready to actually take action. So my book stays on a back burner of my life right now, something to return to and analyze until I am ready to bring forth my tale and show the world what my mind is capable of.